You need to "prove" to your mind the value of play. You need to take some play risks. You need to not do the "work" your mind thinks you should do, that it thinks you must do, that it needs to control you to do. Any control always creates more control. It is freedom you want, and so that freedom starts with freedom from your own thoughts and beliefs. They are not Truth, they are perspectives in truth. There are other perspectives just as true. So not listening to them is a good start. You still have a habit of listening to your mind for your answers. This keeps you inside the mind's control. But life is answering you, the energy in your body is answering you, other people, circumstances, your guides, they are answering you. Peace, Nothingness, your Center, your Stillness is answering you. All these perspectives are also there. Spend more time in the stillness. Spend more time exploring and expressing just for yourself. Can you learn to play with your sense of self?